This year has been full of firsts. Ivy had her first birthday, and began to walk and talk. We’ve watched her become a proper little person. Being a parent truly is the best thing, despite it being so hard. This summer I turned 21, and experienced my first birthday as a fiancé, and last. 2017 has been a very busy and productive year. After Tom’s proposal on Valentine’s Day I organised a wedding within 8 months, I know, what was I thinking? It was a very stressful 8 months but I am so glad we did it quickly and got it out of the way. While we had our child-free night we were reflecting on how long he had known he was going to propose. Tom explained that basically from when we moved into our new home in January 17 he knew he would be doing it in the near future. He said that he didn’t want to propose on just a normal day, and although he knows I think it’s cute when people propose in front of family and friends I would be far too embarrassed if he got down on one knee. He opted for a keepsake rose that had the proposal engraved, if you haven’t read previous blogs. So Valentines Day really shaped up how the rest of the year would pan out.
Although it’s been a great year, there have been some parts I wish never happened. A dear family friend has been battling cancer for the second time and it’s heartbreaking to see. I can’t wait to see her chemo-free and back to her old self. The wedding really took its toll on my mental health, the anticipation and pressure caused my anxiety to hit new levels. I was literally having panic attack so often I was debating moving the wedding to an alternative nearer location. My fear of travelling hasn’t disappeared, however the fact I got to my wedding without having to dose myself up on diazepam was a miracle. I was so proud. I literally got to Tom at the isle and boasted how I’d not had any drugs 😂. Something so simple was a huge deal for me. The way to the reception I was telling him how I’d arrived in my wedding dress, after only ever intending to get changed at the venue because of the stress of it all. Although the morning of the wedding I was like an emotionless zombie, zoning out of my emotions was what got me there. Everyone was asking if I was excited and I really just felt nothing. If I had let my emotions get the better of me there would have been no way I got to Colchester and we definitely wouldn’t be married.
It was this summer I was pretty much made to be unemployed. It seems the system doesn’t work to help families until you can get free childcare for some hours. 2017 was the year I joined the gym, which I really need to get back into the swing of. They keep ringing and I really do intend to start back up with my routine. 2018 will be the year I get back into the swing of things, I’ll make sure of it. I’ve got lots of vitamins and supplements to help me along my way. They were sent to me because of this blog. Becoming a stay at home parent has influenced my cause to start this blog. It’s a hobby I really enjoy and can do from the comfort of my own home. It’s also encouraged me to relive my a-level days and get back into photography. Before I would barely leave the house without a good reason but I’ve found myself going out just to take photos which is quite therapeutic. I’m still baffled when I see what countries my readers are from, it’s amazing.
Thanks everyone for their support, every like and share really is appreciated. Happy New Year everyone, have a lovely time celebrating in whatever way you decided. Hope you all have a happy and healthy 2018!